Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Detoured from Desire


Again, I muse about what I have been doing with my life. I am caught up in some "pain-body"(re: Ekhart Tolle), some illusion, a fable, a tale that keeps my mind absorbed and away from my desires, my passions, my joy. Obsessing with perfection. That is what it is. Who needs to be perfect anyway? Everyone! We have been brainwashed by society that we have to be perfect, and in doing so, we lose our essence, our mojo, our inspiration and creativity. Forget Perfect! (An amazing book, btw!)
OK, so I am deciding to take off the cloak of ego illusion and be myself. It is not a silky cloak like the ones magicians have that glisten and slide to the floor into a pool of cool silk, but more like a cloak with suction cups, burrs and gum, rope, and some cement thrown in there as well--holding tight to block you from all the good emotions. Basically, it doesn't come off easily. It doesn't want to. The ego wants power. It is a parasite of power. It keeps you blinded, and distracts you with nonsense.
And so, again, I have caught a glimpse of it while it pretends to be me, and my life. As I stepped back and viewed how it has made me miserable, I am shocked at the power of illusion it holds.

I am not perfect, nor need to be. I am healthy, and I have a life to be grateful for. I will continue to step back and observe how things are going, and continue to count my blessings. ( I tend to forget when lost in the ego-mind.)

(For those of you who find this rant confusing, read "The Power of Now" by Ekhart Tolle for a better understanding of the ego and the pain-body.)

2 comments:

online casinos said...

I loved the ranting though I wonder if I get things right. But one thing I can share is that you're right about our ego. If we follow it, we should do no wrong.

Julieanne Paige said...

Hi Lisa

I have heard of 'Forget Perfect'. In fact I think I was on a teleseminar where it was spoken about. I do remember taking it on board and consciously letting a few things slide and realizing that the sky didn't fall.It is a great thing to remember... or forget :)

Julieanne